He moved one box after another, slowly but surely changing their lives. She watched as he brought in boxes of incidentals and felt the finality. Yesterday’s delivery of his large mahogany bed, matching wardrobe and “man-sized” flat-screen television should have been the ultimate moment of realization but it was the small things that brought it home. No longer was she looking at his overnight shaving kit, instead, she walked through the bathroom and noted his toothbrush and electric razor neatly placed on the counter top.
She sighed at the thought of this venture. It wasn’t long ago that she was caught up in the process of choosing. Kevin had told her that she was going to have to make a decision on. Kevin, with his laissez-faire attitude and 5 o’clock shadow that shrouded his devilish grin, was forcing her to make a decision. Pressing her with timelines.
Making her way into the living room, she sat on the arm of his favorite chair, posted in the corner of the room. “You know, it’s all going to work out, don’t you?” lacing her fingers through his. Deep breath, deep breath, pause…“I guess we’ll find out soon enough, won’t we?” a typical Kevin response, non-committal even after agreeing. They both rose slowly, seeking a break from the stagnant air between them, hoping to avoid any discomfort brought on by change.
Lacey swayed to the sounds of The Civil Wars, C’est La Mort, drifting from the speakers, holding out her hand to him. “It’s been a long time since you just danced with me. Come.” He took her in from head to purple painted toes. Her chin jutting out like a spoiled child, lips in a perpetual pout–her begging mouth he called it. Grabbing her wrist, he pulled her in tightly, turning her back to his chest. Lightly, placing the other arm across her neck and shoulders, he inhaled her scent. He meant to display power but felt the typical pull she had over him. The last minute show of authority diminished. What was he doing? He wasn’t sure, he only knew that he had the need to possess her and the need for possession would force you to be flexible.
His hand drifted down to her breast, cupping her gently. Massaging gave way to a light pinch of the nipples that he enjoyed teasing with his tongue for the past four years. She threw her head back against his shoulder, hissing like a cornered kitten. He felt the blood rushing to below his belt buckle pressing his length into her generous ass.
“Oh, I’m sorry!” They broke out of their moment, feeling like two teenagers caught in the corner of the basement. She busied her hands to hide the shaking, smoothing her tank top. “I didn’t mean to interrupt.”
Lacey and Kevin glanced back and forth, each waiting for the other to make a move.
Breaking the silence, Lacey walked over to Evan, “No need to apologize, it’s your home too. Is everything out of the trunk?”
“Yeah, there are some small things but nothing serious.” He said glancing over her head at Kevin.
No words necessary just an unspoken discomfort. Two lambs in a lioness den.
Gripping his hand Lacy coerced Evan to the center of the room, gently tugging a simultaneously reluctant and willing body, she repeated her reassurance, “This is your home too.”
The tension in her shoulders eased as they closed in on her, meeting her rhythmic movement as the lyrics announced their journey. Let’s walk down the road that has no end…
Feeling their strength surround her, she thought to herself…”I’m going to like this.”
Written to: All The Wild Horses by Ray LaMontagne
Mental Motivation 